I won't see you tonight

這是我最常也最喜歡聽的歌，現在有很多時候這首歌都還是我的心情寫照，對於不習慣metal rock的人來說，應該不太能接受這樣的音樂。

好幾年前，當我聽到這種音樂，我也感到煩躁不已，直到有一次，我真正發現這種音樂能麻痺我的感官，能夠讓我進入另外一種情緒，反而讓我能靜下來，能讓我專心思考事情... 我也知道，這很不可思議。

在聊天室碰到好多人，好多人都讓我有這樣的感覺，然而這首曲子只會在我腦子裡播放，沒有人能真正瞭解這樣的感覺，就像我一樣，我不想有太多責任，我想其他人也是這樣，但我能了解，卻無法真正諒解，每當我真正想認識甚麼人的時候，卻往往一再失敗。

或許應該像這首歌一樣，決心離開以後，才真的能找到自己內心的本質...

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Cry alone, I've gone away

No more nights, no more pain

I've gone alone, took all my strength

I've made the change,

I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood

All the ones around me

I cared for and loved

It's building up inside of me

A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free

Don't mourn for me,

You're not the one to place the blame

As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood

All the ones a

round me

I cared for and most of all I loved

But I can't see myself that way

Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

Cry alone, I've gone away

No more nights, no more pain

I've gone alone, took all my strength

But I've made the change,

I won't see you tonight

So far away, I'm gone.

Please don't follow me tonight

And while I'm gone everyth

ing will be alright

No more breath inside

Essence left my heart tonight

No more breath inside

Essence left my heart tonight